If you haven’t noticed this yet about yourself, it’s easy to see in others: we each seem to carry the weight of the world on our shoulders. The nature of this burden may change with age. When young, we feel the weight of having to choose a direction in life. As adults, we feel encumbered by all the perceived requirements of an active life: trying to control events, win acceptance, maintain relationships, on and on, with each new self-shaped solution for success only increasing our burden. Then, as we naturally mature and slow down, we often find ourselves feeling oppressed by the things left undone or mistakes made along the way. In short, regardless of our age, we tend to feel weighted down by what we perceive as our responsibility to create and live a “meaningful” life.
Each of us, to some extent, feels certain that we are obligated to carry this weight. Our idea of shouldering it is to work hard, struggling to appear important in the eyes of others, as well as in our own. It’s a wearisome task with few real rewards, and since the only real pressure we’re under is self-imposed, the only relief we find is when we get off of our own backs!
Surprisingly, most people recoil at the suggestion that the weight they carry is in their own minds only. “I’m a responsible person,” they proclaim. “That’s why I suffer. In fact, my suffering is proof of just how responsible I am!”
All of us have heard claims such as this. We may even have spoken these words, or at least felt these sentiments, ourselves. But our new studies speak otherwise. They reveal that not only should we not suffer over whatever we have assumed as our responsibility, but that our first real responsibility is to see through all forms of self-created suffering. Let’s take a closer look into this contradictory condition within ourselves.
To begin with, we want things to change. This wish, in itself, is like believing that being anxious about whether the sun rises or not will help it to do so. Life is change. But we also want it to get better, which means to change according to our own notions of success. So, we try to control what happens, believing that the tension this causes between life and our ideas about it is what it means to feel responsible. There is something misplaced in this mixture of life and our longings that grows unseen. The reason we strain as we do to carry this daily load is because we believe it is what’s required of us to create a real self.
However, for all our struggle, no permanent self appears; only a kind of peculiar suffering manifests itself again and again, giving us an unwanted sense that its permanence may be all there is to life. The only self that finds this sad state of affairs to its liking is an intimate enemy . . . because its idea of permanence means having something to struggle with permanently! When we try to change life in response to the prodding of this false self, the results are self-formational.
All self-formational changes are awkward and temporary at best, because they are not rooted in reality. The struggle we undergo to bring them about is not only painful in itself, but causes additional suffering, as when our false sense of responsibility causes us not only to interfere with our own lives, but with those of others around us. Wrongly believing that the way someone else behaves is our responsibility not only makes us suffer, but that person as well when we try to meddle with his or her life. Our growing awareness of our mistake causes us to become disenchanted with the self-formational approach to living, and we begin to seek the transformational life instead.
Wouldn’t you like to just let go? To release once and for all that recurring feeling that you’re just not making it? Or, how about the weight of fearing what others think of you? Your concern for the future? Wouldn’t it be wonderful to just drop the burden of feeling responsible for the outcome of every event? To just walk away? Yes. It is possible to live this lightly.
As we recognize the futility of trying to force ourselves and our lives into what we think they should be, we also begin to understand that all of our suffering for what we perceive as “coming up short” in life is self-inflicted. What we once mistook for being responsible to our future now shows itself to be only an unconscious punishment in the present. Our findings don’t mean that we don’t take necessary practical actions for our well-being, or that we are not decent to others. It means that we let go of feeling responsible for the future as though we must control its outcome. We realize that there is no way that our painful concern can positively affect any outcome, so we drop that concern. Bit by bit, we begin to hear what real life has been trying to tell us all along.
Now is all there is.
The future is not ours to control. Our responsibility may include choices about what’s to be, but it is not to determine or suffer over what becomes of our choice.
When we assume false responsibility for any moment to come, and then feel worried about events because of this self-imposed concern, we remain self-formational. Meeting life in this way, we are not transformed by events as we should be. Our responsibility is only to remain aware in the moment and to allow ourselves to be guided by and within that awareness. It’s when we leave it at that, that our experiences become transformational.
Excerpted From: The Intimate Enemy: Winning the War Within Yourself
About the Author: Guy Finley, Bi-Weekly Mentor, is the best-selling author of more than 40 books and audio albums on self-realization. He is the founder and director of Life of Learning Foundation, a nonprofit center for spiritual discovery located in southern Oregon where he gives talks four times each week. For more information visit www.guyfinley.org, and sign up to receive a free helpful weekly newsletter and other gifts.
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